Saturday, December 25, 2010
Merry Christmas, and I hope you're happy.
Well, it's Christmas. I'm supposed to be asleep by now but I figured that I need to let out stuff and give views. Well, relationships are an emotional thing. It's obvious that relationships aren't friendships. Emotions are always needed to be comforted and met, no matter the cost. Emotions define the person at the moment in time, and can turn nasty if not managed well. Friendships do not require building because they build naturally. Relationships on the other hand, are a little more annoying. They require face-to-face time and many other things to build on it. Doesn't mean that some couples don't meet often or contact each other often mean that it is the same for all, because personally, those are probably developed relationships. But even the most developed relationships require building. That's why priorities should be stable, but reshuffled to something else when needed to build on things again. Nothing can ever stay the same without work in relationships. Somehow, I feel that one day, I'll get to say the line "I hope you're happy now" again. Ugh, relationships, seriously.
Nevermind. I'm going to sleep now.
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Thursday, December 23, 2010
The "I LOVE YOU FOREVER" bullshit.
Relationships during the teenage years are fragile. Many believe that relationships during the teenage years are impossible. But I beg to differ. They are possible. They only problem is when understanding goes out the window after a few months of being together. Patience wears thin, and every small mistake is refused admission or forgiveness. Well, personally - many may disagree - I think that building on a relationship is of a higher priority from friends. In my view, friends are important when you need someone when something goes wrong. But most friendships will always be there. A relationship may not always be there, especially when it's new. At the end of the day, it is just how the person prioritises his/her time. But personally, a new relationship should be worth building on first.
Above priorities, is limiting. There is always a limit in a relationship. Many times, couples tend to test each other and try to push the relationship and not caring about the emotional tortures that may arise. Pushing the limits by not treasuring, or getting complacent just because the level of comfort is already there.
I took a cycle down to East Coast Park today, amidst all the reckless drivers on the roads. It's romantic places like these that open you up to an envious heart from seeing loving couples stroll by the beach. Places like these motivate a better boyfriend/girlfriend out of you, and start things all over again.
Anyway, on a different note, I need to scream at the open sea. I have too many things pent up inside of me. I almost got knocked down by a car who was literally centimeters away from clipping my rear wheel and running me over. I have no idea how he missed seeing me because I wasn't in any of his blind spot. But then again, I thought about it and wished that he had just ran me over. It would end a lot of unpleasant things in my life, really. It just seems easier to give up now. Sigh.
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Sunday, December 05, 2010
I'm Carrying a Heavy Burden
I can't keep myself sane. It was an hour before you were leaving and I was already hurting. It's only 10 days. If I can't cope with this, how am I supposed to cope with 8 months or a year? I really don't know. I hate separation. It is always the most painful part. When you're back, we have exactly three weeks before you're gone for 8 full months. How will I survive? I do not know. I woke up this morning with an aching heart like how some days you're up with a sore and stiff neck. I went for TV Ministry and I just couldn't focus. I've always paid attention but today was really bad. I totally lost all focus. I really don't know what's wrong. It's just 10 days but I am unable to live through the first day without a teardrop, what more 8 months? Sighh. This really sucks.
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