Monday, May 30, 2011
A slightly better week, I suppose? No.
Now, the past week was probably the most hectic week in my year 3 life and it's just going to get worse every week. Sigh. School work has really driven me to tears literally with the huge workload. I really was close to a breakdown a few weeks back from school work combined with personal trials. Life is really giving me a hard time and I've managed to pull through once again, miraculously.
As for you, you've told me something amazing though it wasn't a huge thing. What you've told me will probably give me hope and joy to continue to press on in life. Sometimes the reason why people can push through hard times is because there's someone staying with them and pressing on not behind them, but beside them. I do hope a miracle can happen to my life now. Trust me, I'm different now. And I miss you.
A memory locked at 5:10 AM
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Monday, May 23, 2011
What battle?
As the title suggests, what battle is there? What battle is there when you've already lost it? Sigh. Again I'm at the same annoying situation as before. I really wish that there would be a way to change the way life passed me. I'm really starting to wonder the point in being honest. What's the point in being honest when people who encouraged the truth out of you, judge? What's the point, really? I really do not wish to go on. With such a bad reputation/history, which person would trust that I'm not the same? The answer, honestly, is no one. Truth is, no matter how sincere I am, and even if I do fulfill whatever promises I make, people will still doubt. It's human nature. And this is why I am really tired of life in its entirety. I really won't mind not being able to wake up tomorrow morning. That, to me, is the least painful way of dying. Truth be told, I've been thinking of the most painless way to end all these problems. The only reason I'm still here is because I don't want my parents to lead a sorrowful life mourning for me. Just the thought of it holds me back, even though they aren't that nice. But I'm just saying that life would really be doing me a favour if it allowed people to believe in me whenever I'm actually sincere and serious. Sigh. If only someone could trust me.
A memory locked at 1:03 AM
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Tuesday, May 17, 2011
What is the point?
So, after being away for a month without blogging, I'm signing in to Blogger again. I just can't handle life anymore. I cannot wait for it to end. I don't care if I've missed out on things in life but I just want it to end. From someone's perspective, they may think that I can create videos well and be a good videographer, though I think that my work is only average. But the question is, so what? No one knows what I go through apart from skills and what goes on in my life. Maybe I don't share, but again, so what? Sharing won't help. Neither will a shoulder. I just want all of these to end. Sigh.
A memory locked at 7:20 PM
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